Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Losing a Pastor

Saturday’s mail included a letter from our church pastor announcing her decision to retire effective mid June. One month away. After that she will be gone! Gone!

We have attended this church for 10 years. This is the first time I’ve had a woman pastor. This experience has been magical. She is down to earth, fully human, humble and fully able to express herself honestly to all who will listen.

Her faith and theology is accessible and she doesn’t judge others in their faith journey either. She knows each of us slogs the path at different paces and with varying results of intellectual analysis and acceptance. I’m stuck in a rudimentary stage and that’s OK with her. She respects each of our journeys. She is there – or has been there – to assist us as we encounter rocks and ditches along the path.

And laughter has been rich and frequent. Nothing soothes the way as well as a good laugh.

Pastor came to her calling and seminary late in life. She was ordained at 50, came to our church at 53 and has served us for 12 years. That makes her 65 later this year and as she contemplated downsizing her home and buying a small condo until she wrestled with her retirement plans, someone came through the door and bought her house quickly.

So she had to either buy or rent another place or make the break and retire now.

She is at a natural point in life to make this decision and opted for retirement. After a few months of rest and relaxation – and meditation – she will decide on whether to re-engage the ministry part time, or be a temporary pastor for other churches while they are searching for a new minister. Most likely she will be a visitation pastor part time ministering to shut ins, elderly and the sick. Those are the quiet folk of each congregation who require a lot of time and energy from church staff. How our minister has done all of that, managed the church, and served as officiate and preacher on Sundays is a mystery to me.

I’ve heard people complain about her absence on some Sundays thinking she is resting or taking a vacation. No; she was attending to family business, taking church youth on a retreat, traveling with the confirmation class on a mission trip, or at a conference/retreat that trained her to better handle our congregational needs. I’ve never observed a more demanding job as hers. 24/7/365 is fully defined by today’s modern pastorship. How anyone can survive the onslaught of need of others is a marvel to me. Exhausting, truly. Rewarding, very.

She is someone you love very much for just who she is. A person of love and caring that sometimes takes your breath away. Meaning, depth, insight, caring. All wrapped up in one package. What a delight. I’ve actually looked forward to church meetings knowing she would be there. And that just got me more involved in the church and its work.

Funny thing is the work wasn’t work; the effort was not labored; the laughter and sense of forward progress was real and refreshing.

I know she ministered to our needs acutely. I just wonder if we ministered to hers?

I hope so. Even so, I miss her already and wonder how we will cope. Her time with us surely has trained us to cope with her absence. And maybe it is our time to learn that truth and relish in it. For her ministry to us has been successful. I think we are up to her standards of truth, caring, and serving each other. So I know we shall manage this critical change very well. She has taught us well to do so!

Shalom Pastor Wende. Shalom!

May 17, 2016


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