Monday, July 16, 2012

Being Judged: Gay in America 2012


Did you know that 40% of homeless youth are LGBT? The #1 reason they’re on the street is family rejection? [LGBT = lesbian, gay, bi-sexual, transgender]

Did you know that over 33% of youth suicide attempts are by LGBT youth? Compare that with the faulty statistic that from 2% to 10% of the population is gay. Truth is, no one knows what percent of the whole are gay. There are no reliable data that consistently shows this figure. Best guess is 5.5 to 7%. Yet suicide attempts are 5 to 6 times higher than gays are prevalent in the population. Powerful statistic even when made conservative!

There are many people who feel bullying is not a gay phenomenon. I agree that bullying is not limited to gay kids; it occurs whenever someone gets power over someone different than himself. And by the way bullying is not limited to situations involving youth. Bullying happens among spouses, co-workers, neighbors, strangers. Bullying happens in many families. And most turn their heads from the problem. Why? Your answer is as good as mine. Shame? Embarrassment? Powerlessness to stop it?

Sexual identification happens to each of us. It is a process of psycho-social growth and awareness. It is biologically driven. It happens during the youthful years of 11 to 15 normally, but can occur earlier and much later. But happen it does.

The process is often subtle; awareness grows slowly and is mixed in with a lot of other life changes, experiences and drama. Good Lord! Remember your early teen years? Recall all the happenings of the time? Pimples? Dating. Body changes. Physical urges we only later realized were sex related. Feverish temperatures that changed in a flash? Eyes zeroed in on the body parts of other people? Without agenda? Without forethought? It was just there? What was I thinking? What was happening? Am I a pervert?

No, just a young person growing into his body and skin. Maturing in fits and bits seemingly without design or schedule. If someone is in control it certainly isn’t me! Remember those times? Take some moments to recall them. We can remember them with more confidence and comfort now; but not back then. Those were weird and exciting times. Not understood. Didn’t know if it was supposed to happen or not. Was it normal?

Now think about it in a different mode. You ARE different than everyone else around you. You are not feeling the same things they are. I am out of synch with them. And I have no one to turn to for questions and answers. My parents would be freaked out by the questions. My brother and sister wouldn’t understand. My best buddy wouldn’t either, or would he? Can I chance it by asking him/her?

Now you know in a tiny way what it is like to grow up gay in America. There is no manual for any one of us while growing up. There are people who think they know what we are going through, but actually they don’t; only I know what I am going through at any one moment. Same with other people. And it is very private. It is very alone. And scary. “All alone am I……”

Sandra Bullock said this:
“There’s no race, no religion, no class system, no color, nothing, no sexual orientation that makes us better than anyone else. We are all deserving of love.”

I love her words, her sentiment. She brings it home to the central point. We are all worthy of love, in both directions: loving another and being loved. These are not simple matters to deal with, however. And when society gets involved the brew becomes much more complicated. Automatic pilot in interpersonal relationships doesn’t work in these situations. It requires us to be thinking and feeling at the same time. We can do this very well. We have proven that many times throughout our individual lives. They are our high points ~ when we are very well connected with what’s happening around us.

But so often we are not connected. Things happen. We may be in proximity to the happenings, or not. We are not aware of what’s happening. We cannot be connected at all times. Unfortunate things happen. Bullying happens without resistance from others. Parenting needs are required when parents are not on the scene. We are on our own. And what happens. The not so subtle occurs. Discrimination. Hurt. Not understanding.

Ralph Waldo Emerson said:
“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”

Yes, a real accomplishment. Growing up different – Afro-American, Asian, Hispanic, young or old, rich or poor, gay or straight – in what we think is an homogenous society is a challenge. For the most part we do it; we get it right. Not without pain and a lot of anguish, but time and love and family and friends working on it get it right in the end.

That’s the good thing to realize. The bad thing ~ some people never get the chance; it’s over before they….

July 16, 2012

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