Fresh Start

Yesterday was layers. Today it is a new day!

A fresh start in seeing the world day by day. Peering out at purpose and past. Pondering the future with time aplenty. An odd statement from someone 75, but there is time to think, to do and to be. We can choose how that time is used.

We have done that in the past. Whether clearly or not, we have consumed time with or without purpose. The occasional nap is viewed by many as purposeless, but I would disagree. We have done countless crossword puzzles and there are those who pooh-pooh such activity. And yes we have labored to help others in time of need, or organizations that focus on the needs of others. Time spent with others; time spent on others; time spent seeking something we know nothing about.

An exploration of discovery. Is that what it has been? Is this a mystery drama of the mind that spends our bank of time? how aware are we that we are doing this? Conscious or not? Wasteful?

Letting loose a bond or two with others gives us a glimpse of a newer freedom. A vacation does the same. Might we let loose long enough to refocus the mind? Can we fit the mind, spirit and emotions together in a well-suited bundle? Will they last long enough to unlock fresh meaning?

Jettisoning a relationship that has become onerous helps find new freedom. But will that past relationship be missed? Will a void become evident? What will I do with that void should it occur?

In that question is the seed of freedom. To spend time in a unprogrammed manner. No expectations. Just a read of the surroundings, the needs and the possibilities. A new journey beckons. It has already begun. Where will it take me? What discoveries await. And how will this remake the me that has become so tired?

We shall see. One door closes. Another opens. Just like my grandfather told me. A new direction is in the offing.

November 15, 2018